Flashbacks

K...bear with me! I really am uncovering new growth. It's really strange how I feel but everywhere I turn I am seeing something that instantly transports back in time. Usually to some personal point in my life. Sometimes, I feel I am grown and confident. Other times, I feel young and unsure of life. I believe the pendulum is slowing its swing...

I walked out to leave for lunch and I saw a bumper sticker on a van that said "De Colores". This took me back to my Emmaus Walk in Indiana several years ago. Ironically, I have been going through more emotions as I did back at that time of my life. Remembering back was good for me to realize that I have gone from "fully processing emotionally" to "staying in control of my emotions to process more logically", that now I am learning how to "feel" my emotions again.

While I was out, I heard a song on the radio (which of course, is the 80's Hour) and remembered when I heard that song. It was on my first "Day-after-Thanksgiving-Shopping-Trip". I had met a friend at our winter youth retreat and I was actually granted permission to go with them when they invited me to go along. This adventure began at 6:30 am. But I had so much fun and experienced a taste of grown-up freedom! (of course, I wasn't allowed to listen to "secular" music)

Walking back into the office building, I caught a whiff of fresh paint. This took me straight to my childhood, as my father owned his own painting business. Ah...such memories came with that flashback. As a young girl, my dad always told me I was able to do whatever I put my mind to doing. He was my inspiration in completing college.

I think the lyrics of Faith Hill's song fits me well today:

Wild One

They said change your clothes

She said no I won't

They said comb your hair

She said some kids don't

And her parents dreams went up in smoke

They said you can't leave

She said yes I will

They said don't see him

She said his name is Bill (Paul)

She's on a roll and it's all uphill

She's a wild one

With an angel's face

She's a woman-child

In a state of grace

When she was 3 years old on her daddy's knee

He said you can be anything you want to be

She's a wild one

Runnin' free

She loves Rock and Roll

They said it's Satan's tongue

She thinks they're too old

They think she's too young

And the battle lines are clearly drawn

She's a wild one
With an angel's face
She's a woman-child
In a state of grace
When she was 3 years old on her daddy's knee
He said you can be anything you want to be
She's a wild one
Runnin' free

She has future plans and dreams at night

When they tell her life is hard she says that's alright

She's a wild one
With an angel's face
She's a woman-child
In a state of grace
When she was 3 years old on her daddy's knee
He said you can be anything you want to be
She's a wild one
Runnin' free